hurt love

It hurts to love someone,
and not to be loved in return
but what is most painful is to love someone
and never finds the courage
to let the person know how you feel.

Oops, I sent a message telling what I felt. I didn’t get any reply. I was wondering if the message is delivered or not? It was a national message, got assured when my balance reduced.
Confused I tossed from side to side on bed. I know him for past twenty years, “how is he going to react? “Was the only thought in my mind.Unable to sleep in that night, I went and sat near the window. I kept watching the night sky for long time. I felt the night was unusually beautiful, the stars and the moon made me wonder. I was thinking of the times we spent together, in school, at home, the time I went spent playing cards. I was wondering from when it all started? it was hard to recollect twenty long years.I was touched by the gentle breeze. The breeze drove me crazy. I went back to the bed, closed my eyes. His thoughts became dream for me, and the dreams became sweet. That’s when I realized the importance for the word “sweet dreams”.
Next day I went to meet him. When he came near I started trembling. I took a deep breadth. I felt I need all the courage to tell what was in my little heart. I just began,” there is something I have to…” I couldn’t speak a word more, I gulped hard.I felt cold and hot at the same time. My palms were sweating.
He came closer, and all my courage evaporated.Without a word he took me in his arms, for few precious moments I didn’t feel like moving away. I wished; let the time stand still shutting out the world. He said,” some things have changed, the world will turn on, and things are bound to change”I kept starring unable to speak.He continued,” I am sorry, you are always a kid to me. I don’t have such feeling towards you. ”It was hard to come over it, but understood each word he meant.
Then I realize the fact that,” the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches”.

first office

I felt I landed up in the wrong place. They were only few around me, but I could feel their steady revulsion attacking me. I had no option, but bear with, as my grades were held with them. I started walking towards the man, who ruled the cabin. I felt an aversion towards him. Who is he to rule me? I am not that insignificant. I thought, there were few other creatures under him, suffering just like me. May be I should call them, the oldies with old fashioned ideas, trying to rule the contemporary world. I sure that the only asset they possess is their big mouth, which can roll in all directions. And the only one with whom I could discuss things was the pretty women sitting next to me. Pretty not by looks but with her attitude. I was confused! Whom to trust?.

I was always in a place surrounded by women; this followed from school to college and didn’t end in my office also. But I was never gender biased as I was always known for my capable flirting. But first time in the air, I could feel the uncomfortable air puncturing me.

The days passed by with mutual insults. But I lost the battle. He had the upper hand, of course in all aspects. I didn’t know what his intensions were, but I knew he wanted to throw me out. Soon my stupidity touched him, made him realize I am a person wanting to be cared, with lots of similar dreams as his, without any direction.

I was summoned to do part of his projects. I sat straight facing him. I did loads of mistakes, but never got fired. I tied hard to not repeat them, but I failed. Then there were even stages were I had to travel with him. That’s when first he talked to anything other than subject. We discussed about my future, his dreams, my ambition, and what not.. I realized there was lots experience in every word he uttered. I thought I got a nice brother who can guide me and he was bold enough to accept it.