Home alone.. :(

I am staying alone in a different city and my husband stays in a different city. I always thought it’s difficult for pregnant ladies to stay alone. I wouldn’t say it’s impossible, but it is difficult though.

Unfortunately due to my new job, I was forced to leave b’lore and settle in vizag. Though vizag is known for its natural beauty with sea shore and mountains abutting it, it’s also known for its high crime rate. I am caught alone in this strange land. I am new to this place and work. When I was trying to settle in the new atmosphere, I got to know that I am pregnant. Wow, yet another twist in life.

But luckily when I went for my first check up, hubby was with me. Neither of us could believe it, but were happy receiving the shock. Before my wedding, I planned a lot.. As in how to surprise hubby with the great news.. But when it came to actual moment, words flew out with tears...

2^nd month- I would keep forgetting that I am pregnant and keep jumping around. My hubby has to call me every now and then from Chennai to caution me.

3^rd month- I got an excuse to go Chennai, as it was my first diwali. Hence, I spent a while with my parents and hubby.

4^th month- was kind of lucky as hubby got “work from home” option for few days, and mom-in-law came to stay with me.

5^th month- it was a shift change. Mom came over to replace mom-in-law. So, had gala time shopping, going around the city, and eating out.

6^th month- I was staying alone with mom-in-law and father-in-law. Hoping that hubby will join me soon.

7^th month- hurry.. I am going to my parents place. So, here I am just counting days, so that I can have a relaxed life, and need not manage anything on my own.

confession of a wife...

I know I am doing this late, but never mind. I know it takes a great deal for me to say, “I love you” to anyone. But to you it always seems to be an exception. May be I should learn to tell you,” I love you” more often than wait for this particular day. I prefer writing it down as it remains a document of evidence for you to say in future that,” you did love me once, so better don’t fight with me now”.

I know it’s going to be almost a year since we got married. And most of the times I have only shouted at you than understanding you. But remember you too did the same. Still I like the carefree attitude of yours and un-egoistic nature. That is only keeping us move together in life. I really appreciate that quality of yours. You really don’t allow the fights to go more than few hours.

I like the fact that you don’t hesitate to show your love for me ever. May be that what gives me the energy for all the day. The kiss at the start of the day and hug at the end.. And I know I am so mean that I get work done from you. I keep asking you for things without moving my ass, and you don’t hesitate to get up how many ever times I ask request. God knows, who else can be as lucky as me to get such a lovely husband.

I know how much you are struggling hard to convince me that you are going to be a perfect dad... and I always complain that you don’t care. I am sorry about it. I just feel that you are not talking much to baby like me. May be our baby is smart and it understands the silent love of yours unlike me.

I should also thank you for your patience.. That you tolerate me so much, though I interfere in all your office and personal works. I know, I should keep myself away.. May be eventually I will learn.

I think I am in all love with you from the time I knew that I am pregnant. Thanks for all the efforts you are taking to stay with me and the baby.. But for you, staying in this strange land would have been difficult for me. I know I irritate you by scolding your mom often.. I am sorry , I can’t help it. I feel all this extra love what I have might be due to release of this oxytocin. It’s a hormone which gives this special love bond. How much I wish I had this hormone always in me.. J

I feel that, whatever I felt, I already wrote in the blog which I wrote for your b’day. So, here I am struggling to write. Anyways, it feels nice to write a love letter, even after becoming your wife and making a promise to live with you all my life. It was so nice to read your long love letter last year.. so, I thought of giving you the pleasure of reading this love letter..

Love you dear

-Ashreya’s mom.

Cravings!

Oh ya, how can I forget the favourite topic of any pregiee.. The cravings.. I did have lots of name sake craving earlier during my first trimester. I kept on nagging A’sD to get me raw mangoes to eat. But he being known for his laziness didn’t fulfil my “mango” wish at all.

The following is the list which i wanted during different months of my pregnancy:

Raw mangoes

Pulikachal

Gongura pickle

French fries

KFC burger

Tuti-fruity ice cream

Kaju katli

Coke

I think the list seems to be never ending. I have fluctuating cravings. I want something at that very moment. When I am offered the same, I don’t want to eat it. In fact I remember asking my mom-in-law to make kozhukattai and later refused to eat even one. Poor lady, I kept on troubling her for my crazy wishes.

Now in the 7^th month, my latest craving is for water melons. J

sorry A's D

Oops last post happened to be my assumption as I got hate message from A’s D( asherya’s dad). Actually my MIL didn’t say a word to A’sD. It was all my assumption. He actually happen to read my blog and then got the info.. poor me, I never expected him to read my blog at all.

Wow, that’s a new to me, that he actually spares time to read my blog. But he never seems to appreciate it, but keeps a note on what all I write. First I thought I will delete the post on the blog, but later decided to repost it. I stated penning down all the incidents only keep a record of things happening in my life. So my dear darling A’sD, I am sorry.

Information travels faster than everything..

Continuing the previous post. The conversation happened just yesterday. I get a bounce next day afternoon. I think everything is over. But, my mother-in-law can take any conversation to any extent. So, soon she has told my husband that, ,” your wife thinks I am a slave as she going to put money in post office in my name”. Great. What else I can say now or do? I am all crippled. I wanted to do something good. But it turns out the other way round. My ignorant husband believes everything what his mother says. He just listens to one side of the conversation and concludes from it. L.

In-laws....

I somehow enjoy talking (scolding) about my mom-in-law. I have become so addicted that, I can’t sleep even a night, without discussing about her to someone. She is both the best thing and worst thing which happened to me. So, here are the few dialogues between her and me.

First time:

All of a sudden, it happened when we were watching a TV serial.

Mother-in law(M): I lost 25 lakhs of money.

Me (D): what?

M: if my son didn’t marry you, he would have got a Flat in apartment, 10 lakhs cash and girl, who is working.

D: so what am I supposed to do?

M: no nothing I am just telling you.

D: ok.

(She goes back to the room to do her work, M goes back to kitchen to continue cooking.)

After few days, the same conversation

M: you should be really grateful to us

D: why? (With a surprised look)

M: you parents didn’t give us any money; we spend all the money for the wedding

D: hmmm (what the heck. What did you do to all the money we gave )

D: (calls her husband) what is all this non-sense, I can’t take it anymore.

After few months, the same conversation happens.

D: I am thinking of opening a RD account for you in post office.

M: why all that, it’s ok. By the way, what is it??

D: I will deposit some amount for you every month. You will get all the money with interest after 5 years. Then you can buy whatever you want.

M: (smiles) I will become old then, what will I buy or use the money for?.

D: (I know that, anyways I will take it from you then and buy something for my kid) that is your wish. You buy gold or something..

M: if I got my son married to my cousin’s daughter, I would have got money now only.

D: (what?? Gets frustrated) oh yes, if that is the case, ask your son to get married to that girl now only and take the money. In case that money is not sufficient, get your husband also married again.

M: what didn’t I say that you are making so much of fuss; I am staying here only because of you.

D: I also didn’t say anything.

M: you don’t even give your salary to your father-in-laws hands.( so that, i can buy jewels from your money and give it to other sons and grandsons.)

D: (why should I give? When i am handling all the expenses and buying everything what you need) not like that, I don’t want you to take any tension at this old age. so I will only manage everything.

M: we are not money minded family. We got my son married to you. It’s all our fate. Because of you, we are seeing poverty.

D: ( right, how cans she be so immature) ok. Ask your son, why he selected me?

M: ( goes to kitchen and back with glass of milk) drink. It’s getting late na. Let’s sleep.

D: ( sleep? Is she mad or what? Neither can i tell this to my husband, as he would support his mother only. Where do i let all my frustrations? Hmmm.. let me write it my blog.)