i hate chocolates..

i am soooooooooo happy. My daughter doesn't seem to like chocolates or sweets. She spits out if i try to give her Munch or Dairy milk. She likes to eat Idili with pickle, Dosa with chicken gravy. she will not take her food if i forget to add ghee in it. 10 months old has already developed taste for food and makes us follow her menu.

good news is that, my daughter gave her first kiss yesterday. :) .

womens day special. i am back.

finally i am back.. back to blogging, back to work, back to vizag. Now i can be more systematic, and have everything going in time.

Today is my first day in office. I started little early keeping in mind the heavy traffic. In spite of precautions i was late. things have changed a little in office. New people have joined. old once welcomed me with a smile. drastic change was to see my place taken by someone else. I was in my office and i didn't have a place to sit. finally few arrangements were made, and i got a new seat and my system back.

leaving back office,
Best part is that, i am not thinking much of my baby. i dont really know if its a good sign or bad sign. I am so engrossed with changes and things to be followed up, that i forgot about her. once in a while i think about her and want to call home and ask about her whereabouts. but feeling little awkward to call too many times as it might make my in-laws insecure. they might think that i am worried in spite of they taking good care of her. i want to ask if she ate her food, but cant question mother-in-law if she fed my daughter properly. how do i ask my baby if she is taken care of properly or not?

anyways first day gone. let me see how things move on from now.

yes, i can stand.

Aval Oru Thodar Kathai (English: She's a Never Ending Story)

It started with a stomach ache. It was confirmed that I was pregnant. Within two months, faced a spotting with abortion threat. read here. Later after seven months, had to travel back home as dad had a heart attack. Then I got admitted twice for false labor. This time scan report read my baby had Splenomegaly. After a month, went into actual labor. Though it was normal delivery, baby fell sick. Days in NICU is yet another story.

Then things were good for few days. Then again the sleepless nights started putting both me and my mom in trouble. People asked me to be on strict and right on my diet. But , hunger during the lactating period!!! I ended up eating samosa’s , poori, mixture, tamarind rice, etc etc. end of the day, I had gastritis and got admitted in hospital. Thought it was just a day. But I started getting stomach pain in the middle of nights constantly and was getting admitted in night and got discharged as I had feed my baby. This repeated for two weeks. Finally one of the senior doctors advised me to take a scan and endoscopy.

Scan report said that I had gall stones. Its called multiple Cholelithiasis . And had to go to Chennai, empty stomach to get endoscopy done. That’s worst thing I say. I had vomiting sensation throughout the day. It was detected that I had reflex gastritis, my food pipe, stomach and duodenum all three were infected.

I just can’t say the trouble I went through. I can’t eat as my stomach is infected. But if I don’t eat, I develop gastritis. To ensure gastritis reduces, my gall bladder has to produce bile. Because of the stone it’s not able to produce proper bile. I ended up with low Blood pressure and low immunity. Got typhoid. Again was admitted in hospital for a week. my husband and father had to bring baby to hospital when ever i need to feed her. she wont sleep without me next to her. faced a real hell. my ward was next to pediatric ward.when ever i see a baby cry, i couldn't stop crying. it was very first time i was away from my daughter.

Now I am little better. I have started taking homeopathy medicines. Have to wait and see the developments. Poor baby got really affected. Couldn’t feed her, as I was hospitalized. She was given cow’s milk, farex. Baby stared getting diarrhea and diaper rashes and cold. It’s like all problem in world has come to me and my family. Its not even a week, when I have not visited hospital. Hope at least next year would be a good year for me. A healthy and prosperous year.

even now i get pain once in a while. have to got hospital get and IV injection done. and then it gets set after a hour or two. baby has become insecure that i might leave her again. so, she doesn't leave me at all. i am forced to take leave now. hope there will be an end to this story.

ohi akum burrrrrr

yup these are the sounds used by my daughter to threaten her toys.. she even started hitting them. may be she will break them next month.

Bikini as a gift.

It was a beautiful morning. I was lying on beach, hugging the warmth of the sand against the cold wind. He came to me with a glass of wine in his hand.

Me: is it for me darling?

Him: no dear…

Me: (looking perplexed at him)what?

Him: go and pick your own glass..

Me: you are so unromantic..

Him: yes, that is why I am here for my second honeymoon..

Me: right?

Him: (laughs aloud)yes ms.right.

I got angry, went to my room. I found a gift on my bed. It was a surprise gift by my husband. Just couldn’t control my excitement. My hands were trembling when I tried to open the cover. I dropped the gift down in the process. Was almost in tears thinking, that it’s a breakable thing. Thank god it was not. It was bikini. That too red colour.

I could hear the footsteps of him coming closer and closer. I turned back to see him.

Him: I know you would like it.

Me: yes, it’s beautiful

Him: I am eager to see you in it..

Me: now?

Him: yes, let go for a swim in the sea..

Me: (still looking at him shocked)ok..

He undressed me. I wore the bikini. We walk down till the waves hand in hand. The water touched me. I froze in the coldness. He hugged me hard.

Him: you look great in this..

Me (smile at him, and gave a shy look): really?.

Just then, I heard my baby scream. oh my god. It was all a dream. I laughed at myself for the stupid dream I had. Me wearing bikini with all the stretch marks?.. Stupid me. I was discussing about bay watch to my friend and had a weird dream..

See here for the dream 1 story.

Smile please..

My cutie gave me her toothless sweet smile.. I am so proud..  I am so happy that, I am telling this to everyone starting from the milkman from morning to watchman in the evening.. ( I am exaggerating.. just telling all my friends)

Days in NICU..

Bad days in my life. Was more painful than the labour. I pray that, even my worst of worst enemy should not go through this..

Yes, my baby was in neo-natal intensive care unit.

It was just the second day after baby was born. I think it was around 9 pm. I was eating bread with milk in the room. I was sitting on a plastic chair. Baby was sleeping on bed.

Baby opened it eyes .

Appa( my husband): hey, kutti( means small in Tamil)..

Amma( me): finally appa is playing with baby??( smiles)

Appa panics and call MIL and MOM. I sit all confused on my chair. I am not able get up because of the stitches.

Appa: baby is vomiting blood.

Everybody is shocked. The nurse station is just opposite to my room. We call the nurse. And she in turn rings up the doctor in charge.

Jr. Doctor: what happened?

Appa: baby has vomited.

Jr.doctor: did you people give the baby honey or something?

Amma: no we didn’t.

Jr. Doctor: let me call the pediatrician

Pediatrician: did you collect sample?

Amma: ( thinks, what the hell? Sample?) no

Jr.Doctor: just give the bed spread with the vomit. And take the baby to NICU.

Amma is still struck to the chair. Appa and MIL carry the baby to NICU.

After they leave the room, Amma cries. She is just feeling depressed seeing the empty bed. Appa comes after ten minutes.

 

Appa: baby is crying. You need to come to NICU to feed her. Wheel chair is coming for you.

Day 1 at NICU.

Amma sits on wheel chair for first time. She is taken to NICU, which is in ground floor, 2 blocks away. Security in the NICU asks her to wear apron, gloves, hair cap, etc etc.. ( amma is crying and angry at him for delaying)

The nurse comes with baby and takes Amma to feeding room.

Amma: what happened to my baby?

Nurse: nothing. We have just kept the baby for observation. You don’t have to worry. You will be called every 2 hours to feed the baby.

Amma: can’t I stay here?

Nurse: no no, baby will be kept in Incubator. There is no place for you here.

Amma is taken back in wheel chair to her room. She is holding Appa’s hands and crying. Amma goes back to room to see both MIL and MOM sleeping.

Day 2 at NICU.

Amma is taken to NICu every 2 hours in wheel chair. Appa accompanies her. In the morning, Amma is curious to see the Sr. pediatrician. Appa bring old reports and tells about spleenomegaly  to Doctor.

Sr.pediatrician: nothing is wrong with the baby. We even did palpitation. She is all fine. May be the baby has eaten mecum before delivery. As the baby has not passes motions till now, lets observe for one more day.

Amma continues her routine of going every 2 hours or 4 hours based on need. 

Day 3 at NICU

Amma: has baby passes motion?

Nurse: not yet. But Doctor was saying that baby’s eyes are yellow. So, we need to take a blood test.

Amma: why?

Nurse: doctor thinks baby might have jaundice.

Amma: so, what is next now?

Nurse: don’t worry. Let’s hope for the best.

Evening, Amma meets Gynecologist and tells her the story. The sweet lady talks to the Pediatrician and confirms that baby had passes mecum before delivery. Nothing to worry, and baby can be sent back to room.

Day 4, which is day 5 for us in hospital.

We get discharged. We are back home happy.

Hey people smile, now we are out of it.. baby is perfectly normal.

Note: there is post coming about the spleenomegaly soon.

Ashreya became Advika…

It’s really difficult, when you have to name your baby. Too many people and too many options. Its difficult to satisfy all. There is star, numerology, religion, region linked to it.

Here is the stand of each person in the family, while I named my daughter.

Me: her name has to start with “A”, as my name starts with A.

A’sD: people should not tease her because of the name. I am not bothered about anything else.

MIL: which ever name the priest says.

FIL: we shall name her as per birth star.

MOM: I will go with your MIL.

DAD: naming of the baby has to be baby’s parent’s wish. I don’t have any say on it.let her nick name be Bunty ( I love you dad)

SIS: I want the baby to be named Amrutha.( she was quite adamant on this)

Finally we named her as per my wish. Her name is Advika.

I liked the name because…

a) It starts with “A”.

b) Its not so common name, though there is already a blog in this name.

c) My name and baby’s name, both have 6 letters.

d) It’s a Sanskrit name.

e) Its meaning is also good. It means ” unique girl”. Someone who thinks and works differently.

f) My husband liked the name( surprisingly)

g) And finally, I didn’t keep the name according to my MOM or MIL or FIL’s wish.

Note: according to birth star, we need to name her with starting letter “ CHO”. And the priest suggested “Cholika”. It is supposed to be Goddess name. I know, everybody thinks of the song “ choli ke peche” after listening to the name. so, it was easy for me reject MIL and FIL’s selection. And convincing MOM and SIS was little difficult.

Suspense ends…

I delivered a girl baby on 29^th of may 2011, at 6.49pm. I just can’t express how happy I am. I wanted a girl baby, and finally it is.. J. It was a suspense till the end for everyone. But, I kind of got an hint a month ago when I went for a scan. The doctor was showing each part of the baby and explaining. She said, this her brain, lungs, stomach, liver, kidney etc etc. but at point, she drew two ovals and nodded to her junior. I knew she was showing ovaries. She thought that, I wouldn’t notice or understand that. I confirmed that it was a girl baby.

HURRAY!!!

My baby has started kicking me. My husband is all happy, as the baby is able to do something which he could never do to me. J. Initially I could feel the kicks only during the night. I am hoping that my baby is not a nocturnal kind. But now the frequency has changed with time. Baby kicks me when I plan to take rest. I feel that I am going to have naughty kid as it doesn’t allow me to take rest at all.